Dreams · Editing · Indie · Positivity · Publishing · Writing

Flying Free

Well, it’s official. I told my boss that I will not be returning to my teaching position next school year. *Whew!* I worried about that conversation for weeks! I am a worrier by nature and I tend to agonize over important talks with people. As someone who constantly strives to please people, I  often create false scenarios in my head for how people will react to me. When I got in to see her this morning, she was very supportive, encouraging, and understanding of my decision. I felt so much better after talking with her and seeing her favorable reaction to my news. I remembered that 90% of what we all worry about never happens or, when a dreaded thing may happen…it is often less horrible than we expected.

The way ahead will be challenging, busy, perilous, and full of hard, hard work. However, I am incredibly excited about the opportunity to be my own boss and work full-time pursuing my dreams. Last year, I wrote five manuscripts. I am currently writing a sixth novel but am revising//editing the first novel I wrote last year. My plan is to publish it sometime between August to December 2012. I am going to be self-publishing, so the ability to work full-time on my novel and editing will be sublime. It will not only help me stay on schedule to publish this year, it will help me to create  a far better end result than if I were trying to juggle teaching and editing on top of it.

I feel like I am unfolding my wings and flying away to the place of my dreams. I have no illusions, however, that this path will not be fraught with intense hard work. I have no illusions that I will wake up everyday and have a writing//editing session filled with rainbows and kittens. It will be tough. But it will be wonderful. For those of you who are, like me, making the transition from day-job to working for yourself, I have found these links to be helpful and inspiring:

Tina Su’s Story

Evelyn Lim’s Story

 

What is something you could do today to get yourself closer to achieving your dreams?

Dreams · Positivity · Writing

Give Yourself Your Best Chance

I don’t know about you, but I am hooked on ABC’s “Once Upon a Time.” That show has been such a treat during my week. I look forward to it every Sunday. Once I was caught up on all of the newest episodes, I went back and watched them over again, I loved them so much. One theme that I really appreciate in the show is the idea that people want to give their progeny a “best chance” in life. I think that is a precious thing; to will that someone’s life will be better because of their hard choices. Another aspect of the show that I love, is the fairy tale element. I find all of the new spins on old stories to be fascinating. Of course, I love books like that, too! I adore fairy tale remixes. Snow White’s character in the show is particularly interesting to me. She is strong, and bold in the “real fairy-tale” world. In the dream (our) world, she is timid, insecure, and afraid to stand up for herself. I love how each of these characters needs to find out who they really are.

Don’t we all feel like that? Like there is some real person underneath this fleshly exterior? Like there is some entity waiting to burst forth in all of its true glory? Shouldn’t we feel that we need to give  ourselves our best chance? Yesterday, I was so blessed to receive a comment on my blog from Evelyn Lim of Abundance Tapestry. Her encouragement reminded me that I am able to achieve my dreams. I can do it. I just have to give myself my best chance. Watching those characters in “Once Upon a Time” struggle to remember their true selves really resonates with me. I feel much like that myself. I feel that, in order to achieve my goals, I must “wake” the real bold, courageous, secure person that lives inside my heart. She is the real me and yet, sometimes, I feel so unlike her.

As a writer, I appreciate stories that reach the heart of real, and consuming life struggles. This show, to me, speaks volumes about living your life as your true self. We should not hide who we are behind jobs, hobbies or talents. Those things are manifestations of our true selves, but they are not the whole. We should step forth, chin up and head high, and wield our personalities and abilities with security and honor. We should know that, even if we lost our jobs or could no longer perform a certain skill, we are precious and beautiful without those things. We are individuals; there will never be anyone like you in the universe ever again. There may be individuals that come along who are similar to you, but they will not be you. Just as there will never be anyone who is exactly like Snow White or Rumpelstiltskin, those of us in the real world are just as unique and precious to the universe. Our stories are just as interesting and meaningful.

So, today, start writing a new chapter or scene in your life. Start trying to give yourself your very best chance at your dreams; live life as you really are. Awaken your true self and be bold in your choices. Remember, your life is your very own fairy tale– full of magic and wonder. Give yourself your best chance in life. For me, that means leaving my current job and stepping out on faith to be a full-time writer and editor. For you, that may mean going for that job interview or cutting something out of your busy life. It could be anything, because each of us are different; so are our needs and dreams. Dream big and go for it!

In what ways do you try to give yourself a “best chance” in life? 

Dreams · Editing · Positivity · Writing

Learning to Appreciate the Transition

For those of you who have read my About Me page, you will already know that I am in the process of transitioning out of a full-time day job to being a full-time writer and editor. When my husband came to me a year ago and encouraged me to pursue my dreams of becoming a writer every single day, I had no idea that, a year later, I would have the looming prospect of working full-time from home as a writer and editor. The Philosopher, my husband, approached me a while back and asked me if I might want to leave my full-time day job and write and edit full-time. I was excited, but underlying that excitement was anxiety, fear, and insecurity. “Can I really do this and be successful?” I thought. The Philosopher seemed to think so. You know what? The more that I work on my novels and the more that I work on editing my own words and the words of others…I think I can do this, too.

As appealing and exciting as the prospect of leaving the corporate work world for the individual work world is, I still have a lot of negative thoughts and emotions to overcome. I tend to feel guilty for wanting to chase after my dreams. I get caught up in thinking that people will be angry with me for leaving my day-job or that they will be disappointed in me if I fail at working full-time as an author and editor. When those thoughts come, and the anxiety inevitably follows, I have to remind myself that I cannot predict the future

I have no way of knowing what will happen in the next year or two. I could fail, yes; but I could also succeed. A blog that I like to frequent is Abundance Tapestry. Evelyn Lim is an excellent motivator and often has the right words to inspire me back to the right way of thinking. Though I may not always support or understand the means with which she reaches her inner peace, I appreciate her journey and find a lot of wisdom in her words. One post I read recently discussed daily inspiration to help push yourself towards your dreams. As I am writing this on a Thursday, I’ll focus on the inspirational tip for that particular day of the week: make friends with life. This was an especially good piece of advice for me today.

Because I work two jobs (teacher by day, writer//editor by night), I get a little bogged down in the muck of exhaustion and stress. I have many roles: wife, daughter, sister, writer, editor, teacher, martial arts student, friend, etc. The list could go on and on for each and every one of us. Though I have such a terrific and exciting life, I tend to get overwhelmed easily. Evelyn Lim’s words of inspiration and encouragement were a breath of fresh air this morning. I have to stop struggling to make it to the next moment. I need to enjoy the moment I’m in right now. I need to make peace with my moments–even if they are filled with fears or anxieties. When I get home to write and edit this afternoon, I need to be at peace with myself and the world so that I can give all I’ve got to my novel and my clients.

That involves making peace with the phrase, “I don’t know.” I don’t know what will happen when I leave my full-time day job. I don’t know what will happen once I publish my first book. It’s alright. I do not have to know what will happen next to be at peace with the here and now. I can take pride in knowing that I am working extremely hard to bring myself closer to my goals. I can rest in the knowledge that a Guiding Hand orders my steps. I can have joy in the days and weeks and months that it will take to be ready to start working at home.

So, for those of you who are struggling to quell the negative thoughts that surround your dreams, know that you are not alone. I am right there with you. For all you writers out there, like me, who are not published, but are daily working towards your goals…you’ll get there. It may take longer than you imagine. It may take much less time than you imagine. The sure thing is, life will always present us with opportunities for growth and change. It is up to us to react to those opportunities with gratitude and courage. Besides…who doesn’t want to follow their dreams? Store up good thoughts and intentions in your heart today. That will certainly set you on the right path to furthering your goals.

How do you deal with the stress of managing a day-job, a night-time writing schedule, and your familial commitments?  Comment! I’d love to hear about your journey!

-The Writer